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http://claratwm.wordpress.com/

check back here for photos and stuff...

iTunes: better together by jack johnson

that's my baby boy...and tiffany made a comment about it on msn...which i thought was hilarious...

TF says:your dog looks like taboo from BEP
TF says:face long long, centre parting, eye liner
TF says:skinny and tall

last week we went back to look for kebab man...and he was there! (oh cause he went missing from the shop for a while)...and if you didn't know...he's this really hot guy that works at this kebab store that sells only the best kebabs ever (partly cause he's there...but still good)..yup and here's how totally uncool we were despite trying to act all nonchalant....

fi: hi...can we get 3 koftes please
him: coffee or latte?
*fi turns to the fridge and pulls out a bottle of coke
fi: just this thank you...
*clara and fi walks back to table
*1 min later...he walks up with a notepad and pen
him: so what do you girls wanna have today (*grins widely)
*clara feeling a little faint
fi: hmmm we ordered already
* he looks really confused
him: no you haven't..when did you order?
fi: we just did
him: with whom?
fi: with you!
him: no you didn't
fi: yes we JUST did
him: no... you came up and said you wanted 3 coffees...and i asked you if you wanted coffee or latte..you said just coke

oh.....my....god.....how dumb did we look!!!!! it's fucking hilarious....oh man....we are such bimbos.... sigh...but he's soooo good looking....

yesterday night i had a HUGE HUGE urge to eat cheesecake...and my sister gave me this website to this australian chain of cheesecake stores called The Cheesecake Shop (DUH)...yup....and i had to suppress my urge till today to get cheesecake...we actually traveled to hiedelberg (some ulu ulu place lah) just to get the cake... only to find that it's not the type i was craving for...BUT...the cake was awesome! we bought like half a strawberry glaze and half american cheesecake... YUM! check it out
http://www.cheesecake.com.au/ListGroupsForState.aspx?ST=VIC 

we played netball on sunday... just got together some friends and played half court... it's such a thrill to be back on court..it's been ages... my hands are itching now..and i can't wait for sunday to come again... we are also signing up for a netball league..which we named our team after a beatles song...yellow submarine...goooo team!

iTunes: kiss me by sixpence non the richer

what is wrong with these people? and their ability to understand the situation? you tell them one thing...and the next thing you know...they tell you something else...and please...if you are going to provide a service...at least make sure the people who works for you know their shit.. if not they are going to screw up a lot of people here. seriously? this is the second time and i am not impressed with them AT ALL...a big organization with a bunch of crappy people telling nonsense to their customers...and when u try and track them back? oh they suddenly have no idea who picked up your call? excuse me? have u not heard of quality control? if its just my inconvenience that's affected here.... i guess there's nothing much i can do? but when you wanna charge me freaking 2000 dollars! have some sense to at least tell me why you are rejecting my claim... a simple " i am sorry to say ur claim has been declined" would not suffice... 2000 dollars is no small sum and is probably more than ur freaking pay...so do not tell me that i need to pay it off when it is of no fault of mine...your product is faulty and we pay for it? i think not....ugh...so much for providing award winning service... i spit on ur name and ur reputation...it's all crap...

iTunes: given the dog a bone by ac/dc

what a windy day today was...i must say i honestly seriously thought i was going to be blown into some bush or hit a wall or something...and the worse thing about the weather ain't about messing up your hair? it's about getting sand in your eyes and all over your face...seriously..you know how dry the weather can get right? so we naturally apply tons of lip balm? fi was going on about licking her lips and finding sand there...yucks... well on the plus side... it wasn't cold-in-the-bones kind of temperature...

ok. so we have an issue with our dear internet provider...AGAIN. i hate they way they do things here. i hate them. seriously? we filed a claim for some billing issues..and they rejected our claim...ugh. this whole entire issue is spoiling my mood..and will probably take most of our time calling them and arguing... what a stupid bunch of people! i hope they fall into a drain or something..tom or whoever picked up our call..and that person who read our claim form and rejected it. fall into a muddy drain and drown in it...

we went to have kebabs again yesterday and low and behold...very-handsome kebab man was there! heh... we spent the entire night talking about multiple scenerios we can seduce him...

oh oh oh! i learnt a new skill yesterday...and i can't wait to show it off....

iTunes: with you by chris brown

ok i have found a blogging pattern me...i am an abusive blogger that only blogs in times of intense emotions..and are mostly of nonsensical material... so i've decided it's time to include some useful material...

we just had our easter break. which totally reeks. but it's over and i am not going to cry over spilt milk... we're going to have a great semester break in jun..i am sure of it...

yup so we handed in our first assignment of the semester. and it's not my best work i must say...it took me a friday and half a sunday to churn out. so how good can it be? ok i am hoping and praying that the tutor that marks it, is the kindest person on earth. because that's probably my only saving grace right now..

so i met amelia after like what? 10 years? yup...we had dinner at corretos..and well it felt familiar...that kind of closeness yet unfamiliarity washed over me...and it felt weird but good weird...we're going to play netball together again...that's something i am looking forward to..

on sat we had dinner at eric's...sigh the soup was taste of home man...i miss home made soup...i could have finished the entire pot of soup if i didn't get stuffed on the other yummy dishes he made...ohh and we wii-ed all night...now we have manly and aching arms....

oh we got our first deal today with checkers! ok my friends and family aside i meant. a friend of tiffany's bought something off our site... ok she's still considered friend so it actually doesnt count...but well it just gives me more hope that the site is still going to do well?

tiff just gave me a site to a photo competition for amateurs....it's my next item on my to-do-list..something to look forward to doing..i'll just need my trusty camera...sigh i miss him already...

first day of school? well felt like the first day of school... sucky...cold..and sleepy...

ok multiple scenerios go through my head a million times today...

but fear got the better of me..and i caved...i caved to everything i complained about...everything i kept so silent about..

one day it'll happen...if it doesn't happen today...it will someday...when i pluck up the courage to....

we started the easter celebration with hell of a house warming.. thank you all for making it...hope you liked our humble home...

we had sort of an outdoor bbq which we created all on our own...with some aluminium trays...bricks and some really dense charcoal...topped it up with frankfurts..rump steak...lamb patties...mushroom and onions...and then there's also the carlton cold and jell-o shots...which we used to play tons of games....which includes the must-have never-ever...

oh course as usual..i got a little more drunk that i needed to be...but still managed to sober up in time to catch the match of the season...man u versus liverpool... of which my hero scored..thank you very much...at that moment in time i realised i missed having zl around...my lovable soccer watching buddy... if only i can take my entire world here...it'll be so much more comfortable...

today i started my detox plan...which includes me not eating anything except taking liquids which aren't suppose to contain sugar or what naught...well sad to say my attempted detox week lasted 1 day....it got too unbearable...and by night fall..basically all i could think about was food...yup..plus it made me soo sleepy...and restless...

detoxing sucks...i say eat all you want...who cares about eating healthy or losing weight...i'll be a fat cow....or an elephant...

iTunes: jiang nan by lin jun jie

you know you're uncivilised when you've lived out of your luggage for so long. it almost feel natural to dig into the suitcase to look for clothes. or that you've been lying on the bed to use the computer that now that i you have proper desk and chair...you actually look forward to doing work just so that you can sit there...

but i can say..the room is officially furnished! yeah me! boo my bank account..it's relatively empty now...

today is good friday. and we spent the day being handy men. fixing up our wardrobes and desks..which is fun.. it's kinda like fixing puzzles...cept that my arms probably grown thicker by the inches and my back kinda hurts now.. sigh..feels like i am getting older...

iTunes: say it ain't so by weezer

i am getting really excited. because there's progress in forming a netball team for the mixed netball league. it's some competition organised by a community club here. and it's a mixed league. that would mean the team must consist of both guys and girls...ok i think we asians are very small compared to a lot of aussies here. but i don't care. i don't care if we get trashed or not..which i am sure we won't. only cause we're such great players. haha. yup as long as i get to play.

i have got to stop this obesession....

here are 3 very HOTTTT models!!!!

we decided to measure ourselves today....and i assure you...i have very thick arms. thighs and wrists...charm and fi tells me they are not..but i am...i really am...

my arms are 28 cm in circumference.
my thighs are 55 cm in circumference.
my wrists are 15 cm in circumference.

i don't really wanna measure my waist..

but yes. that proves i am a big fat cow....

iTunes: wish you were by kate voegele

it's 3 weeks into school. and i know i should be doing work. and the weather is no excuse not to...but when the temperature is freaking 40 degress. how does one find the energy to do anything? i can't even bring myself to cook dinner. let alone pick up a 800 page course reader to do readings. i know i am being a bitch about the weather. i complain when it's cold. and i complain when it's hot.  but u aren't here. so not here. no opinion.

i am thinking of joining the netball team at school. just so i have some form of life. a life i know i can have. but there's just so many things that's pulling me back. the money issue. the fact that i will be doing it alone is scary. and of course the overriding issue that going to a team full of unfamiliar faces in a foreign land scares me. it intimidates me. this is after all the netball capital of the world. but yet the thought has been in my head the entire day.

well all those stuff aside. i guess you can say we're pretty much settled in. we have a new housemate. we got our internet and phone lines going. we have a daily routine going. i reckon i can almost recognize all of our tram 1 drivers. oh what i am missing is a study desk and a cupboard. believe or not i am still living out of the luggage..which sucks because i am too lazy to iron...yup. so you'll see me wearing clothes that do no require any sort of ironing whatsoever.

thanks to the lovely zl..i still get access to my favourite shows. phang and i just spent 3 hours watching OTH. which is soo UGH right now. there's not other word for it. it's just UGH! hmmm but that's why we all watch OTH. it's not for perfect endings... it's just so we can bitch about the characters we hate.

i just feel less of a person than i should be right now.

i start to question why. i start to question how. and i start to question what.
and everytime after. it's never the answer i am seeking. and each time it leaves me feeling emptier than before.

iTunes: blind by lifehouse

i dunno why i do it..but i just watched king kong for the 4th time. and each time it ends..i tell myself i won't go through that again. and yet i find myself witnessing one of the top 10 most cruel scenes in all movie history....and each time i wanna plunge a knife deep into jack black's ugly ass heart. of course in the show he's called carl dehnam. and i wanna rip out his insides and feed it to the cannibals...

i am proud to say i survied yet another scorching day.. today we hit a record of 40 degrees. its the highest i've experienced since i've been here. seriously. it makes you think of doing things you never thought you would think about. things like pouring slurpee all over your body. or removing all your clothes in public. or even just rubbing your body on the wall so that you can feel that little amount of coolness against your skin.

we joined something called the singapore student society (SSS). yup and it's kind of a platform where we hope to meet more friends..tml we have some bbq with the SSS of RMIT. well we didn't meet many cute guys at the melbourne uni one..hopefully tml at the RMIT one we'll meet truck loads.. heh heh...

first of all...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LENG!

today we hit a record of 38 fucking degrees...oh man..you have no idea what ur roast feel like till you've actually experienced today...i am this close to being a vegan...

i've kinda sorted out my timetable..and it's looking pretty good...i get tuesdays and fridays off...and i only have 1 long day this term...so i have a lot of time for work and assignments...our plan to take different tutorials for our subject didn't really work out in the end...because we all want days off...so we kinda ended up in the same tuts again...oh but on the bright side...we have a few new friends this semester....and more in future i hope...

our new house..is a house to chill man...we have this amazing backyard where we practically sit there in replacement of a living room...the neighbours don't even know us and they hate us already....10am in the morning and we are strumming the guitar...schreeching to songs that only makes sense to us...we're constantly slamming our doors...haha and mind you...our neighbourhood is a very very quiet one...

hmmm after moving here for a week or so...we realised that we've moved into a lebanese populated area...not that they are any thing bad to live with..it's just that the area can get a little dodgy sometimes...yup...but on the plus side...the entire area is crawling with shisha and tobacco...yup..we got ourselves a little shisha "aquila"....it's pretty...and yellow...

we found a canberra girl to move into the house...i've never had a housemate...so i am SOOOO not looking forward to it...but due to my serious need of money...we have to have a housemate...but on the bright side..she may help us open doors to many house parties and friends...heh....

the amazing race is on now..so i am going to glue myself to the tv screen...i'll be online a little bit later....

hmmm..choices. there are so many choices to make. and yet sometimes i feel like i am directed down one road. a road that i have no choice in. i need it to survive this. i need it to just feel a little included.

i wanna be that someone to be brave enough to do this. so many times i've tried. but fear pulls me back. and i am stuck in this loop where i just can't find a solution.

if there's one thing that scares me. it's loneliness. and yet i've never felt more alone in my life.

ok turning 21.... hmmm...i won't say its something i look forward to? but it's not something i hate. it's just that 10 years ago....the 21 year old me would have accomplished sooooo many things...and somehow....i kinda fall short on that list...but i also have found many other experiences and friends which weren't on the list...so i guess that evens it out a little...

yesterday we had an amazing dinner at a suzuki night market down at queen victoria market...we had spanish..mexican.,italian...pancakes...cupcakes...greek...yummy,...yup.. then we were suppose to go clubbing to celebrate birthday for yours truly...but apparently clubs are either closed or they close early on wed here...what happened to ladies' night people???? yup so we decided to try our luck at the ever open crown casino....

yup...so we tried the money wheel first. which i lost all 20 bucks on...then we decided to try our luck at slots...which we immediately won 50-60 bucks...not bad for a first timer huh....yup and eric played some blackjack before we went to have drinks at the pub...

we had cocktails and JD for eric and adrian....the girls bought me a bloody mary with absolute pepper in it...oh my god i swore..i almost puked it out. because they made me drink the entire half a cup left at one go...yucks...its like having diluted marinara with ice....but i love the girls all the same...

so after drinks...we headed back into the casino...and guess who we met??? brian mcfadden. ok i have this thing about recognizing people but also not quite...so i went up to fi and told her "hey that guy looks a lot like brian mcfadden...but don't think its him"...and she's like "he is lah tangy!"...and i was like "No way...it isnt"...then some dude walked pass us and went "yup...that's brian mcfadden"...haha ...yup....he's actually pretty cute in real life...without the old curry puff fringe during his westlife days....

ok it's not that exciting turning 21...i think all the hype happened during the party on the 16th..it just feels weird celebrating again...the girls bought me the world's second best cupcake as a cake..the best one we already ate at the suzuki night market...more photos up soon...

i am actually more excited to move into our new place...my new room is bright green by the way..i don't know if i already mentioned..and its huge..and we have a lemon tree by the back...how cool is that....sigh...and i can buy a new bed..with new tables and cupboard....hee hee...so happy...

oh we're going to sign up for sports today...a good way to keep fit and make new friends....okok catch up soon people...missing u guys already....

ok just 2 days ago...i was readily going to admit...i was afraid we're going to have to sleep on the streets....then we met this nice agent guy called angelo (yup..hear the name and you know he's an angel)...yup so we kinda told him our predicament..about applying to houses when many many applicants...yup...so he symphatizes...and said he'll do what he can...and low and behold....we got it!!!! yup...

it's a huge house....3-4 bedrooms...the optional room is meant to be a living room...but we plan to lease it out...its all newly renovated...so the place looks totally new...HUGE front and backyard...an awesome fireplace in all our rooms...windows and drapes all installed...lightings all installed...5-10 mins walk to direct trams to school..what more can a student ask for...

so now we're happily shopping for furniture...and i can already imagine what my room will look like..heh heh heh....

we're going to a club called F4 to party tonight....see u when we're sober!!!!

ok i've never tried blogging when i am high....but there's alwats a first fpr evberyti9ng....see if you vcan understand....

we;re currently at eric's/.//.just finished a game of circle of death..whihc ended -pretty quicly because i already dranl alot while we were wathching the big bang theory..seriously funny shiow....i love sheldon....so funny...

yup thgen we attempted to play guitar heroes whoich totally rocks!!!!! you should try it some day...seropisously.....

ok we spent the last 3-4 days applying for apartments and houses...bvut seeing that every house that we apply for had 10 to a millionm other applicants... i would say our chances are prtty slim....because..first we have no income...and next...we have no proper proof of our parent's income....so there you go...p[ray fior us....

ok i think ...i think! we have photos and video of what we are doing right now...so wait up for mroe incriminating photos of us...

oh we';re going for some sydney road party tml...thei9r closing down the entire rpoad...which is really longby the way...from 4am to 12am...i proimise we;'ll tale more photos..and i won't be drunk...i thjink...

okok i think you';lk understand what i am sayaing..,...so i shan't edit this entyr....

u guys take care and sms me whenever u can ok?